Let’s catch up

Here is my unpolished and authentic story of how I got here. The chapter before this one.

While I don’t want to sit here and bore you with my what some would call “irresponsible” life decisions, they are key to what brought me to the point I am at now. But I’ll make it short, and if I start to ramble let me know… oh wait this is a website so we can’t do that. ANYWAYS. Let’s get started.

I married my high school sweetheart (insert eye roll) at the lively age of 20 followed by getting pregnant all within the same year, again I refer back to how proud my parents are. Against all advisement I thought I had found that once in a lifetime, world league, sweep you off your feet kind of love. If you’ve read my about me section you’ll know that relationship did not last, can I get a “I told you so” from the back row? So if you’re looking for the blog about young love lasting forever I’m afraid you won’t find that here, don’t worry I’m not a cynic towards love but we’ll get to that, just hear me out.

8 months into a new marriage, a baby on the way and a husband who was deployed to a remote area with little to no contact. Sounds like a nightmare right? In those moments I swore it was, but looking back now this was the exact situation I needed. Instead of dwelling on being alone and struggling to figure out how I was going to do this I focused on me. Within the next year-ish, is that even a word? all while going through a pregnancy/raising a baby; I worked full time, started my own business and graduated from university, twice! In the words of Selena Gomez, yes I did have to “lose you to love me” am I right ladies??

We proceeded to move back home to Connecticut from our 3 year vacation in Hawaii. Side note, we lived in the rainbow state through all of this. Unfortunately the military doesn’t sponsor you once you say adios, and $10 milk wasn’t in the budget anymore. So what better place to move back to than in with my parents! MOM AND DAD I’M HOME, thanks for not turning my room into a home office yet! Trust me they were just as excited as we were.

Fast forward to today. My son likes my parents over me, but it’s ok because they like him more than I do anyways… just kidding he’s only up for sale 3 times a week now. I’m balancing being a full time mom, full time nurse and still figuring out where I fit in this big world of ours. So here I am, the girl who doesn’t plan her life around the “white picket fence dream” anymore. If you can take away anything from my story be it to never let someone else tell you it’s not possible, whatever that “it” is. You are strong, you are brave and you will be ok. I promise it is so so so worth it.